tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24381685830533390732024-03-13T14:26:09.075-07:00muSHANG きつねit's just sometimes i just wanna shut my mouth close n write...just write!muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.comBlogger522125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-15258883845423027282012-01-22T07:44:00.000-08:002012-02-01T03:00:03.755-08:00posting terakhir<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-nVMkPbsHdlI/TyiR2Dk7CdI/AAAAAAAADT0/DOU98D95xuA/s1600/387437_2395999710329_1561052953_31765917_621281850_n.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 335px; height: 446px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-nVMkPbsHdlI/TyiR2Dk7CdI/AAAAAAAADT0/DOU98D95xuA/s400/387437_2395999710329_1561052953_31765917_621281850_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5703969285923867090" border="0" /></a>mungkin ini adalah posting terakhir...<br />karena mulai hari ini sudah punya rumah baru...<br />kehidupan yang baru..di tempat yang asing yang baru jugak..<br />kawan yang baru...jiran yang baru...pekerjaan yang baru..<br />tapi kawan yang lama tetap tersemai di dalam hati... :)<br />karena itu harus segera berkemas untuk pindah ke rumah baru ito...<br /><br />terima kasih ucapkan kepada yang telah mau menampungku selama ini....<br />buat teman-teman semua,<br />saya tunggu kedatangan kalian dirumah baruku....<br /><br />demi kebahgiaan seseorang....<br />demi kesejahteraan jiwa dan mindanya...<br />maka,..<br />berakhirlah kehadiran barangkali di alam virtual dan juga kehadiran teman di forum2...<br /><br />kerana muttakhir ini..<br />tidak lagi berupaya membuat posting2 di sini tanpa mengundang 'ribut di dalam cawan teh' (storm in a tea cup)...<br />tidak berupaya lagi membuat posting2 di sini tanpa mengundang spekulasi2 penuh negatif yang memeritkan hehehehehe.....<br />tidak berupaya lagi membuat posting2 di sini kerana setiap patah perkataan dan setiap baris ayat dalam setiap posting2 dan juga dalam setiap reply kpd posting akan di analisa dengan penuh syak wasangka....<br /><br />maka sekiranya inilah jalan yang terbaik,<br />biarlah beralah... mengundur diri.<br />apalah salahnya.. sedikit pengorbanan.<br />anggaplah kehadiran selama ini ibarat kabus pagi yang hilang ditelan mentari (cewahhhh... sempat jugak bermelodrama... )<br /><br />terima kasih kerana memberi kesempatan utk berkenal2an dgn individu2 yang wujud dialam realiti melalui alam virtual ini...<br />individu2 yang teman hormati dari pelbagai latar belakang dan penuh dengan pelbagai character yang sedikit sebanyak turut mewarnai hidup....<br />individu2 yang sudah anggap macam keluarga,<br />macam adik2..macam kakak2.. dan macam anak2 sendiri... hahahaha :D<br /><br />dan ketika berinteraksi samada di bod ini mahupun diluar sana,<br />sebagai manusia yang penuh kelemahan, mesti ada kesilapan dan keterlanjuran..<br />jadi secara ikhlas dan jujur memohon kemaafan dari rakan2 semua.<br />salam perpisahan untuk semua. Amin<br /><br />p/s: sedang pembikinan blog yg baru jugak ngeh ngeh.. :p <div>email : firli_arias@yahoo.com.my<a href="http://www.blogger.com/firli_arias@yahoo.com.my"><ferly></ferly></a><a href="http://www.blogger.com/firli_arias@yahoo.com.my"><ferly></ferly></a><br />kredit pic : tuan syaril & tuan zaffri..Thankz!</div>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-18248162597358268242011-08-30T03:19:00.000-07:002011-08-30T03:22:20.127-07:00botak sudah..uhuk..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-3PslweqS4Uk/Tly5UJRaLDI/AAAAAAAADTI/ZAh9lP06Xks/s1600/297369_260832730608642_100000457516628_969900_1023757_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 326px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-3PslweqS4Uk/Tly5UJRaLDI/AAAAAAAADTI/ZAh9lP06Xks/s400/297369_260832730608642_100000457516628_969900_1023757_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5646591788553219122" border="0" /></a>p/s : jgn pijak rumput area lot1o...nnti dikejar pak guard haha....
<br />muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-41064880119694623802011-08-24T02:13:00.000-07:002011-08-24T02:24:05.831-07:00cik lappy baru :]<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-UkksL4kcG_A/TlTA-deAcII/AAAAAAAADTA/AX0js1jvdKw/s1600/P8240029.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-UkksL4kcG_A/TlTA-deAcII/AAAAAAAADTA/AX0js1jvdKw/s400/P8240029.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5644348412296982658" border="0" /></a>dunia baru, lappy baru, semangat BARU~~
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<br /><div style="text-align: center;"></div>hari ni cuti.hari cuti adalah hari berehat-rehat..
<br />walaupun tempat kerja sama,time kerja pun lebih kurang sama,..
<br />tapi masing2 tade mase nak berrelax2...
<br />sebab,
<br />masing2 asek bertekak pasal kerja.so, bila bercuti ni, tade la nak sebut2 pasal kerja ye.hee~
<br />bila cuti hari ni,
<br />minggu lepas lagi dah plan nak buat ape time cuti wat aggmnt kerja kunun2 haha..
<br />, misi hari ni,BELI LAPPY....online..lebih murah...pantas..senang..tut tut da sampai hee...
<br />pc lama, da ke..aka lappy da jahanam.lepas tu pakai lappy kwn,sekarang beli lappy baru~
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<br />p/s : time tok jln2 dlm cik lappy asus... :]
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<br />muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-9594948154553097932011-08-20T22:08:00.000-07:002011-08-20T23:13:23.812-07:00tiada cuti raya...sob sob :,[''<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-GwQ2vyb97as/TlCazoJzIhI/AAAAAAAADS4/RKjGT9uEqeE/s1600/pledge-malaysia-army-296x141.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 328px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 234px; CURSOR: pointer" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5643180544837755410" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-GwQ2vyb97as/TlCazoJzIhI/AAAAAAAADS4/RKjGT9uEqeE/s400/pledge-malaysia-army-296x141.jpg" /></a>tak lama lagi hari nak sambut raya n berakahir Ramadhan kan...
<br />tidak lama lagi mo raya neh..hati riang2 sudah hoho~~
<br />sayu, sebak bila pikirkan Ramadhan tahun ni....uh..dok jauh lagi..uda homesick..
<br /><span class="goog_qs-tidbit goog_qs-tidbit-0">langsung tiada cuti untuk sebulan ni... sob sob.</span>..naseb bek da outing rito..
<br /><span class="goog_qs-tidbit goog_qs-tidbit-0">tiap2 hari buka puasa teringgat cik lappy ( curik2 bukak tenet di berek malam ari hee~~), sambil menaip keyboard, kiwi kasot kasi kilat2. :((</span>
<br /><span class="goog_qs-tidbit goog_qs-tidbit-0">sedihnya saya</span>..uhuk...
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<br />bertambah sedih bila pikirkan Aidilfitri.
<br />beraya seorang diri..kunun2, dan di penjara neh. sedih bukan???? :((
<br />besarnya dugaan tahun ini...besa jua..la neh.. hukhuk...
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<br />tadi mengadu kat sifu "i sedih... nk puasa n bbuka ngan famli wlpn skali..lama xketemu mereka neh ... raya sorang2 la kn pasni...."
<br />then my boss ckp, "Jangan sedih mangkuk..dah tugas kena ada kat sini maaaa.. biar komandan teman u puasa and raya yee.... Jangan sedih2...hhahaha" *cis nak kena pok jer..
<br />sorang lagi menjawab, "Jangan habaq cm tu. meh ikut aku balik alor staq nnt naaaaa..."
<br />huhu. thanks all for cheer me up....harapan palsu neh...uhuk
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<br />thanks jugak my mum sbb ckp "tahun ni semua sorg2.. tahun depan kita semua lagi kumpul serata pelusok msia..langsung tak jadi nak emo haha. heheheh
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<br />eh..cam lebih2 pulak..huhu...
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<br />Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan semua.
<br />semua Ramadhan kali ini penuh makna...
<br />Salam Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir Batin ..
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<br />p/s: lagu tok semua..with love from pulapol~~
<br />muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-89663188846485760882011-08-06T18:03:00.000-07:002011-08-06T18:16:42.304-07:00outing<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-HRxJvIDINLw/Tj3nZShvWnI/AAAAAAAADSo/FmrehksAOE0/s1600/3570730254_065ca8c19d.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 294px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-HRxJvIDINLw/Tj3nZShvWnI/AAAAAAAADSo/FmrehksAOE0/s400/3570730254_065ca8c19d.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5637916730193828466" border="0" /></a>atoi!!!<br />ape dah jadi dengan blog neh..uh...asek hilang-hilang paswod..<br />wat julung-julung kalinya si komandan lepaskan para banduan untuk berfoya2..maceh komandan...(ceh!) last-last sama jer uhuk..<br /><br />punya la lama tak update...<br />last entri emm..boleh tengok sendiri la apa yang tulis kan...merepek hoho..<br />hari raya mo dekat xda coti lak uh.....<br />aduh... memang lama dah blog ni tak update tenet kunun2 hee :p..<br />apa yang buat selama ni adalah sibuk kena penjara la neh...<br />kat entri ni pun dah tak tau nak tulis apa....<br />so sebab dah lama sangat tak update blog ni saja la nk memenuhkan ruang blog ni kan.<br /><br />Ilmu pasal blogging ni pun dah hampir hilang semuanya dek gara² serve the country cewah.gto. byk menda dah blaja... apa yang telah study? lupa2 mo relaxing time..<br />malas nk dinyatakn disini...<br />rasa nak stop dulu la blog tu dan ingin memfokuskan diri balik dalam dunia law ni ahee...<br /><br />cuba walaupun dalam hati ni memberontak nak main-main jer....<br />topik untuk ditulis dalam blog ni juga aku dah tak tau nak tulis ape...hoho lama aihh..<br />mungkin lepas ni blog akan di isi dengan perkara² yang entah pape je kot....<br />asalkan dah berupdate dah la yer..<br />tak pandai dah aku nak menulis entri yang best² lagi(best ke hahaha)<br /><br />sekian dari bkt bintang, majulah blogger untuk blogging. Thank you very much!<p style="text-align: justify;"></p>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-57563388615895195412011-04-08T03:08:00.000-07:002011-04-08T03:08:42.025-07:00dont take it personal<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-yLgc1OIpBD8/TZ7eSoi0npI/AAAAAAAADSc/iMdnBXozma0/s1600/THE_DAY_MY_LIFE_WAS_PUT_ON_PAUSE_-_TITLE_PAGE_-_done.44172908_std.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 259px; height: 400px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-yLgc1OIpBD8/TZ7eSoi0npI/AAAAAAAADSc/iMdnBXozma0/s400/THE_DAY_MY_LIFE_WAS_PUT_ON_PAUSE_-_TITLE_PAGE_-_done.44172908_std.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593152198943219346" border="0" /></a>it's done perhaps...<br />it's been done for a few days now...<br />how did it end?<br /><br />if i recall correctly it was me realizing your immaturity..<br />and you not willing to put me before your friends,<br />not even for the little things...<br />after that,<br />you thought you would get your revenge by claiming you liked someone else,<br />some dumb you barely even knew who i knew would never like you back...<br /><br />well your plan worked...<br />it broke my heart...<br />even though i had wanted to end it,<br />knowing you liked he while..<br />we were still together killed me...<br />i was shattered into a million little pieces,<br />and thought there was nothing in the world that could put me back together....<br /><br />but something did...<br />it was my new found self confidence...<br />when i realized i deserved so much better than you...<br />the pieces very slowly began to reassemble....<br />and then i began noticing...<br />that more and more friends would smile at me,<br />try to talk to me,<br />give me compliments...<br />that made the pieces come together more quickly....<br />the best part about it was...<br />i never needed to get revenge in order to become whole again....<br /><br />hurting you wouldn't make me feel any better,<br />because i simply try didn't care anymore....<br />you broke my heart,<br />made me feel like shit,<br />and then did it again....<br />now all i see are those wasted years with you,<br />the time spent waiting for you to show you cared....<br /><br /><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style=";font-family:";" >Di petik dari firman Allah dalam surah Al Baqarah, <em><span style=";font-family:";" > </span></em></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><em><span style=";font-family:";" >” Ada sesuatu perkara yang kamu cintai tetapi itu membawa keburukan kepada kamu. Ada pula sesuatu perkara yang kamu benci tetapi sebaliknya ia membawa kebaikan kepada kamu. Sedarlah kamu tidak mengetahui, Allah-lah yang lebih mengetahui.” </span></em></span>(curik dr fizah hehe... :p)<span style="font-size:100%;"><em></em></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><em><span style=";font-family:";" ><br /></span></em></span></p>there are no lingering thoughts about us in my head,<br />about "what could have been"...<br />this isn't one of those stories where i realized i've always still loved you...<br />no. in fact,<br />i don't know if i ever loved you,<br />because now that i know what true love is,<br />i know what i felt when i was with you sure as hell wasn't this.<br /><br />so in a sense my happiness is my sweet little revenge....<br /><br />p/s : be good...suatu petang yg bosan tok nulis jua huwaa~~muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-25156303186857374752011-04-07T22:40:00.000-07:002011-04-07T22:42:23.528-07:00s.p.a.c.e<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-zqKuO10dS-E/TZ6gF3pJKtI/AAAAAAAADR8/QcDTQDgszno/s1600/5569603241_dd6c798a91.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 266px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-zqKuO10dS-E/TZ6gF3pJKtI/AAAAAAAADR8/QcDTQDgszno/s400/5569603241_dd6c798a91.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593083809937042130" border="0" /></a>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-9979867616630409292011-04-07T22:37:00.000-07:002011-04-07T23:31:32.172-07:00yes i do<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-0icHvosqPuQ/TZ6fm4pCxhI/AAAAAAAADR0/gN5OYUpKZoI/s1600/5549214250_d26d58c8b5_o.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 301px; height: 400px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-0icHvosqPuQ/TZ6fm4pCxhI/AAAAAAAADR0/gN5OYUpKZoI/s400/5549214250_d26d58c8b5_o.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593083277629113874" border="0" /></a>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-57520742812094599942011-04-07T16:10:00.000-07:002011-04-07T23:17:53.003-07:00dari kiri cepat jalan<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-_COAnNCq-PY/TZ5Lomhh2oI/AAAAAAAADRk/Jlt63_EoTDY/s1600/pulapol.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 224px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-_COAnNCq-PY/TZ5Lomhh2oI/AAAAAAAADRk/Jlt63_EoTDY/s400/pulapol.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5592990948148763266" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-XBD7W-FBboc/TZ6oVXaxUOI/AAAAAAAADSU/-IAG8OQtczY/s1600/Picture%2B032.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-XBD7W-FBboc/TZ6oVXaxUOI/AAAAAAAADSU/-IAG8OQtczY/s400/Picture%2B032.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593092872257753314" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JhfNwcvV468/TZ6oGKVKMhI/AAAAAAAADSM/04yliaAd-Ck/s1600/app_full_proxy.php.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 277px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JhfNwcvV468/TZ6oGKVKMhI/AAAAAAAADSM/04yliaAd-Ck/s400/app_full_proxy.php.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593092611046519314" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-JzvOlnG2eyQ/TZ6mpKBPa8I/AAAAAAAADSE/lXgr40HADPo/s1600/yum_0195_copy1.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 268px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-JzvOlnG2eyQ/TZ6mpKBPa8I/AAAAAAAADSE/lXgr40HADPo/s400/yum_0195_copy1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5593091013235141570" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-g8k8LjPnwYU/TZ5JkLn1MmI/AAAAAAAADRU/DOxO08dhcng/s1600/3841165125_12d0f867d9.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 261px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-g8k8LjPnwYU/TZ5JkLn1MmI/AAAAAAAADRU/DOxO08dhcng/s400/3841165125_12d0f867d9.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5592988673184707170" border="0" /></a>p/s : mandi peloh hari-hari~~muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-16630035443454512452011-04-05T06:00:00.000-07:002011-04-05T06:35:36.500-07:00home sweet home<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-5m-FSl8rzK8/TZsWGcK4CMI/AAAAAAAADRE/d_TLZIiks20/s1600/IMG_2929_ce-300x200.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5592087662207436994" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 333px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 230px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-5m-FSl8rzK8/TZsWGcK4CMI/AAAAAAAADRE/d_TLZIiks20/s400/IMG_2929_ce-300x200.jpg" border="0" /></a>you know im a dreamer but my heart’s of gold i had to run away high so i wouldn’t come home low just when things went hight it doesn’t mean they were always wrong p/s : lega...tok balik kejap pon :]muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-83420291880077508922011-02-28T06:47:00.000-08:002011-02-28T07:30:46.460-08:00long vacation<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-G136rRARQ5M/TWu1rGtdd8I/AAAAAAAADQ0/9-yaXon2nWw/s1600/pack-suitcase-long-vacation-800X800.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5578752315568781250" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 336px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 234px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-G136rRARQ5M/TWu1rGtdd8I/AAAAAAAADQ0/9-yaXon2nWw/s400/pack-suitcase-long-vacation-800X800.jpg" border="0" /></a>when it's this good,<br />there's no saying no i want you so,<br />i'm ready to go..<br />take care,<br />buibui~~muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-36280753860580390592011-02-26T01:19:00.000-08:002011-02-28T07:21:47.567-08:00hening<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/--Y11gM35FI4/TWu9Va3MA1I/AAAAAAAADQ8/C-Nk63hV0gU/s1600/source.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5578760739114189650" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 333px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/--Y11gM35FI4/TWu9Va3MA1I/AAAAAAAADQ8/C-Nk63hV0gU/s400/source.jpg" border="0" /></a>Andaikan Kau Masih Ada<br /><div>Berdiri Mendampingiku</div><div>Ku Ingin Kau Pun Tahu</div><div>Betapa Ku Menyayangimu</div><div>Andai Kan Ku Sanggup Untuk</div><div>Memutar Kembali Waktu</div><br /><div></div><div>Tak Pernah Sekejap Pun</div><div>Ku Alihkan Engkau Dari Perhatianku</div><br /><div></div><div>Selama Hidupku </div><div>Hanyalah Dirimu</div><div>Yang Sanggup </div><div>Menyinggahi Ruang Ruang Hidupku</div><br /><div></div><div>p/s: post lirik neh lg hee..suka~~ :]</div>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-54661642320524127322011-02-24T03:02:00.000-08:002011-02-25T00:28:21.675-08:00today is beautiful<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-DAC8N-mJLCs/TWdn8xecW_I/AAAAAAAADQk/lzGwBTrXfZg/s1600/menunggu.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5577540957292485618" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 253px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-DAC8N-mJLCs/TWdn8xecW_I/AAAAAAAADQk/lzGwBTrXfZg/s400/menunggu.jpg" border="0" /></a><span>mengantuk...<br />mengantuk...<br />mengantuk~~<br /><br />mrning!!!!!<br />rasa macam tak nak bangun dari katil je arini neh...<br />nak tidur puas-puas...<br />macam best je hari ni kan...hahahaha ntah<br />tak tahu nape nak rasa macam tu,<br />just rasa hari ni akan berjalan dengan baik.<br /><br />baik ke???<br />tak tahu la...<br />nak start dari mana ah???<br /><br />malasnya nak bangun awal2...<br />harimau kt uma da bising2 wahaha~~(sori ma huk2 :D)<br />tapi de banyak keje nak di buat...<br />tapi kena bangun gak coz banyak lagi kerja nak buat..<br />hari ni try pack barang fuh fuh besemangat2..awai nye hee..<br /><br />sampai ke tengahari,<br />pergi kedai 2 kali sebab saya lupa nak beli apa hehehe...<br />jangan lah kena amnesia...<br />i'm still young...<br />asyik lupa je kebelakangan ni...<br /><br />rumah sewa sebelah dah ada orang duduk..<br />aiye..pas ni tak leh wat sesuka hati,<br />tak leh buang sampah merata-rata hoho~~<br />tak leh menjerit-jerit...<br />tak leh karok kuat2..<br />tak leh nari2...<br />tak leh intai2 hahaha... :D<br /><br />kerana kelakuan anda sedang diperhatikan...<br />hahaha just kidding..<br />i need privacy...<br />but still ok..<br /><br />no meeting friends today...<br />all so busy with working and lessons ..<br />i was so busy looking for my stuff preparing for my big day hee~~<br />malasnya nak singgah blog sendiri...<br />malas nak menaip.. 2 3 hari ini,<br />tak habis-habis mencari sesuatu yang boleh dibaca..<br />sibuk mencari sesuatu yang baru dalam hidup...<br />sendiri tak tahu apa yang cari..<br /><br />kadangkala ingin mendengar muzik..<br />yang mampu menarik keinginan untuk menari,<br />kadangkala mahu mendengar satu lagu sedih,<br />yang mampu buat diri sendiri yg tengah nyanyi :p<br /><br />oh god... i'm late to watch my favourite drama..<br />thats ncis...i should stop on9 now...</span>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-69181182105667668312011-02-22T08:17:00.001-08:002011-02-22T23:02:10.954-08:00lie for a reason<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-rHzNm2Au5mI/TWPhvElkudI/AAAAAAAADQU/qM-m-ol3BQA/s1600/P9250327.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5576548962416245202" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 410px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 153px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-rHzNm2Au5mI/TWPhvElkudI/AAAAAAAADQU/qM-m-ol3BQA/s400/P9250327.JPG" border="0" /></a>you know there's not really much anyone can say...<br />i've heard all the typical things you would say to someone-<br /><br />"it gets better",<br />"give it time",<br />"you deserve better" etc...<br /><br />to be honest nothing helps...<br />even if it's happened to you,<br />we can't compare ourselves...<br />love between two people is different,<br /><br />so heart break between two people is different...<br />how it feels to you is different...<br /><br />it's been some time and my wound still feels fresh,<br />it still feels like i have a gaping hole in my chest...<br />i still think about that everyday, every minute, every second....<br />and the scary thing is i actually believe that i will never get over her...<br /><br />her is and will always will be my part,<br />the one i fell so hard for i lost myself in the process...<br />and rotated my life around her..<br /><br />but what i remember the most was the feeling,<br />that she was different than anyone i'd met before...<br />for awhile after that night we talked, got to know each other,<br /><br />became more than friends,<br />but being young and so naive our 'relationship' wasn't real...<br />the next time we talked to each other would be at a friends party and from then on,<br /><br />she was about to be everything to me...<br /><br />i fell in love with her...<br />i didn't even know what love was but i think i figured it out,<br />that feeling took me awhile to name but i felt it...<br /><br />we shared everything,<br />we shared the best parts of our teenage years,<br />and now being forced into adulthood we've changed...<br /><br />she said he needs to figure out who she is and i'm stopping her.<br />i've blamed myself,<br />i still do...<br />i'm full of so much regret and guilt and it never goes away...<br />i still there,<br />we talk and im not going to lie and say we haven't had those nights before...<br /><br />the sad thing is i still<br />remember her far away~~<br /><br />although i know you're supposed to distance yourself to try to move on,<br />i can't..<br />i'm holding on to her with everything i have...<br />you can call me naive and too young but to me love doesn't have an age restriction...<br /><br />p/s: ..............................muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-30944829584989225482011-02-19T04:01:00.000-08:002011-02-19T04:44:14.622-08:00crime<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-a4w0OF6Vnk0/TV-xyBNZiAI/AAAAAAAADQM/o-1r_MxDiAc/s1600/DSC07843.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575370336584173570" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-a4w0OF6Vnk0/TV-xyBNZiAI/AAAAAAAADQM/o-1r_MxDiAc/s400/DSC07843.JPG" border="0" /></a>p/s: atoi! kering bulan neh mahai toi buku law, tebal2 lagi berat belaka leh wat bantal tido jua~ :/'muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-81594692334309801352011-02-19T01:11:00.002-08:002011-02-19T02:44:32.919-08:00last day of the week<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Pm2r7wLSNdI/TV-VXtBnwcI/AAAAAAAADQE/P8HBrt5zEjE/s1600/58463_1289655902101_1851333555_555996_6865453_n.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5575339098163888578" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 203px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Pm2r7wLSNdI/TV-VXtBnwcI/AAAAAAAADQE/P8HBrt5zEjE/s400/58463_1289655902101_1851333555_555996_6865453_n.jpg" border="0" /></a>eh lupa plak nak wish morning.....<br />morning, annyeong haseyo, zhao an... selamat pagi...<br />cepatnya masa berlalu..<br />rasa macam baru semalam melalui hari jumaat..<br />cepatnya masa berlalu, dah kembali kepada hari sabtu semula...<br /><br />tak sangka kitaran untuk satu minggu begitu cepat..<br />masak dan buat kerjarumah secepat yang mungkin..<br />tak tahu nak kejar apa..harus prepare awal2..]<br />isnin harus ke mahkamah terus..<br />harap semua keja siap dalam sato hari ;]<br />tapi bila cepat siap, cepat lah relax...hehe bosan..<br /><br />tak tahu nak buat apa..neves2 dup dup..ngee~~<br />.. internet buat giler!!! hari jumaat hari yang busy ke???<br />emmmmmm.............sakit hati...<br />tapi kembali normal untuk seketika lepas tu..<br />tengahari yang sekejap panas terik, sekejap mendung..<br />sekejap hujan renyai..<br />hanya obses mencari maklumat untuk assignment sampai lupa segala-galanya...hahaha<br />pukul 2.. comelnya alya...<br />muka dia bersih and putih... comel sangat..<br />tak habis-habis gelak dengan karenah dengan paksu dia becerita pasal alya... :]<br />boleh giler...,<br />pernah ketawa sampai hilang suara...hahaha lupa la...tentang apa..<br /><br />...petang ni.. before nak p beli barang-barang,<br />karaoke dengan adik kat rumah..<br />abis sume lagu big bang..hipop & westlife belasah...hahaha<br />lagu samsons bez pe hoho....(semua org diam sepi2 hahaha ciss..)<br />gelak macam orang giler bila salah pitch.. salah lirik... tak boleh tahan...<br />tapi enjoy sangat...<br /><br />hari ni ada macam2 perasaan.. gembira, sedih, geram... semua la..<br />nak citer ke??<br />tak payah la...hahaha<br />gembira sebab macam selalu, ada benda baru yang mengujakan...<br />ada perkara baru yang tahu..<br />ada music yang dengar...<br />sedih bila mengimbau cerita dengan satu melodi yang masih melekat di telinga..<br />wow hoho...<br />tak mahu tenggelam dalam kesedihan<br />tapi tak sanggup nak lepaskan sebuah lagu yang selalu mencuri perhatian hati..hikikiki :D<br />tak jemu, setiap kali pun mahu terus mendengar...<br /><br />geram... aiya.. tak dapat tengok cerita kegemaran... hujan dah... nanti tv kena sambar petir..hehehe<br /><br />dah lama kuarkan tension giler2 macam hari ni... ... tak boleh tidur... cepat-cepat tidur walaupun tak boleh tidur bila sekeliling sunyi sepi.. semua orang tidur awal...gud nite!!!!!<br /><br />kredit pic: <a href="http://www.facebook.com/noki.photography#!/profile.php?id=1851333555">noki</a>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-78417513108680773042011-02-16T07:35:00.000-08:002011-02-25T02:29:09.258-08:00itamputeh II<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574316475936897234" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 269px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-aLXQmPuM6Eo/TVvzTQXTeNI/AAAAAAAADP8/nODGoeU7J0o/s400/DSC01169.JPG" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574312178425742818" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 380px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-TGwXu3u5bv8/TVvvZG4zReI/AAAAAAAADPk/Ju8FClVKKAM/s400/DSC00945.JPG" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574312754118313618" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 326px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-EgdlTVoqeaY/TVvv6ngmxpI/AAAAAAAADPs/kVLfuK7hu5M/s400/DSC01081.JPG" border="0" />p/s: skitomylou-spend time idly, loiter as in every afternoon they could be found hanging around the mall~~muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-65827281134030611812011-02-12T01:09:00.000-08:002011-02-12T02:56:37.711-08:00lovely smile ♥<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-sybDayGYOqM/TVZk_OsYAII/AAAAAAAADPU/q43b1GzzZF0/s1600/768984894.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572752626356322434" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 307px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-sybDayGYOqM/TVZk_OsYAII/AAAAAAAADPU/q43b1GzzZF0/s400/768984894.jpg" border="0" /></a><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572731504295939954" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 266px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-XYLi9L00kBk/TVZRxw4wD3I/AAAAAAAADPE/NJAt7qjcAPw/s400/534545435.bmp" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572731088805085442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 266px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-405oqFT_w3k/TVZRZlEAwQI/AAAAAAAADO8/3V8Kwn-GxSc/s400/168726_1454547424286_1851333555_834665_1304617_n.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572731024567126690" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 269px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-rEJtMTKwynI/TVZRV1wfSqI/AAAAAAAADO0/EunSYAkJQ8w/s400/168085_186497558039163_158923454129907_553930_1706183_n.jpg" border="0" />p/s: s<span>uch a lovely evening </span>with bro & alya :]muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-2111471675086286452011-02-11T22:42:00.000-08:002011-02-12T00:31:21.385-08:00agent gibbs<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-EJsQwUCnwgk/TVYs9nlz-fI/AAAAAAAADOs/rfeM-fNQcpk/s1600/6546465.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572691026028788210" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-EJsQwUCnwgk/TVYs9nlz-fI/AAAAAAAADOs/rfeM-fNQcpk/s400/6546465.bmp" border="0" /></a>hari ni berlalu dengan sempurna,<br />dan kadangkala membuat rasa nak pukul orang ngee~<br />entah dari mana nak start,<br />entah suka atau tidak hari ni ada dalam hidup neh..<br />ada perkara yang buat teruja,<br />ada perkara ang buat rasa sedih dan geram..<br />semuanya berjalan dengan baik mengikut landasan yang telah diteapkan<br />tapi dengan perasaan yang berbeza..<br /><br />brilliant legacy hari ni ulangan, hahaha eun sung makin comel lak..<br />die dah jadi baik sikit. masa eun sung kena pindah woo hwan bengal..<br /><br />ncis, malam ni punya citer..<br />hee, tak suke r dgn si micheal, hodoh gler..<br />tak suke yang ada jambang2 hee..<br />dinozo jeles, mse ending dinozzo tembak micheal,<br />pe jd minggu dpn...?<br />dionozzo kena tangkap ke? aiye.....<br />time for sleep petang hoho :DmuSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-42731099067807744102011-02-10T02:34:00.000-08:002011-02-10T03:47:06.935-08:00end of the road<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TVO_iDPd8mI/AAAAAAAADOk/KKnKrXwh4wk/s1600/56767567567.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5572007755694076514" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TVO_iDPd8mI/AAAAAAAADOk/KKnKrXwh4wk/s400/56767567567.jpg" border="0" /></a>imagine you'll appear out of nowhere...<br />i'll be sitting on a bus full of all my friends...<br />i imagine you will walk towards me...<br />and look at me with regret in your eyes...<br /><br />i imagine i'll be surprised in the expected kind of way,<br />look back at you and shake my head because i'm tired...<br /><br />tired of everything,<br />but mostly tired of being without you...<br />i imagine you'll simply say three sentences: I am sorry.<br />i can't live without you..muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-61807752649537032642011-02-05T01:23:00.000-08:002011-02-06T07:32:55.429-08:00sewing time<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570593238055813714" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU65CSaCglI/AAAAAAAADOE/FoSXKDoVjzY/s400/paget55.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570597297726819202" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU68ul3CC4I/AAAAAAAADOU/nzM3M20iWQM/s400/gttr.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570160834413528898" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU0vxFUDB0I/AAAAAAAADNE/NAaE0ZwzYb8/s400/page.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570161832991590482" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU0wrNTnCFI/AAAAAAAADNU/i4RFsUe8_SE/s400/page4.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570160663739686546" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU0vnJgO3pI/AAAAAAAADM8/nez1smsFsbg/s400/page2.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570593113696401922" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TU647DIcegI/AAAAAAAADN8/tzn2opabP5I/s400/page.jpg" border="0" /><br /><strong>p/s: spend less time scrolling and more time sewing~~</strong>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-8011580397637604852011-02-04T06:46:00.000-08:002011-02-07T02:18:50.801-08:0024/7<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUwWXXC1J9I/AAAAAAAADM0/CU-ra63vht8/s1600/7856767.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5569851429729150930" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 268px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUwWXXC1J9I/AAAAAAAADM0/CU-ra63vht8/s400/7856767.jpg" border="0" /></a>this is a kind of story....<br />and it’s not...<br />we met at north,<br />i had been with the activities im joined...<br /><br />the first time i saw her with her friends,<br />i was startled...<br />she presence evoked a visceral reaction from me,<br />i felt like all the breath had been knocked out of me..<br />and the small voice of my heart said, “oh”...<br />she scared me,<br />i had spent the last years of my life shying away from trouble...<br />and any possibility of having a serious relationship to pour everything..<br />i had into my career...<br /><br />i recognized immediately here was someone that could disrupt all that...<br />we spent the next days circling one another, having very little direct contact...<br />we never spoke directly and despite my being an extremely friendly,<br /><br />i never reached out to her...<br />she made me uncomfortable,<br />and i didn’t like it.<br /><br />soon,<br />we had our little bit citcat...<br />and after several hours,<br />i found myself standing next to her...<br />having had more than my share of smile and laughter,<br />i started a conversation with her...<br /><br />we sat down and for the next few hours,<br />spoke only to one another ignoring the activities around us...<br />we talked of love, and how her wasn’t in it...<br />we spoke of our careers and our passion for creativity and beauty...<br /><br />she complimented me,<br />i knew somehow that life had just changed...<br />an awkward fear came over me and i excused myself to leave...<br />she told me that she had waited her entire life...<br />to feel about someone the way she did about me...<br />that she had loved me from the first moment that she saw me..<br />and had avoided me because of her situation...<br /><br />that what she felt for me was epic....<br />i said that we were lucky,<br />that we were met to have found one another...<br />because how many people in their lives get to live out their fairy tales?<br />i believed we were meant to be together cewah~~<br /><br />but things didn’t last...<br />they were awkward...<br />her thought i was perfect when i’m not...<br />i had many things going on my life...<br />she had difficult things happening in her..<br />i acted out as he withdrew...<br />and after a couple particularly bad scenes i was at fault for, it was over...<br /><br />i wanted to explain and explain until im tired so badly..<br />but she walked away too quickly for me to catch up...<br />her didn’t want to see me...<br />or talk to me...<br />she couldn’t...<br />i wrote, text a massage, drawed to her and i gave her space,<br />but she cut me off...<br />all without ever talking to me face to face...<br /><br />i finally told her that i couldn’t believe im ever believed her...<br />that she was wrong,<br />that i couldn’t believe after the things she said would walk away without at least talking...<br />i apologized,<br />i humbled myself,<br />i cared more about being right and wanted to prove that...<br />but she wouldn’t budge...<br /><br />her told me she had disengaged..<br />and that...<br />i had disappointed her too much...<br />i was heartbroken...and<br />i hated myself..<br />i blamed myself..<br />i couldn’t forgive myself.so..<br />i tried,<br />i fought,<br />i begged,<br />i pleaded and meanwhile,<br />i hurt myself because..<br />i didn’t know what else to do...<br /><br />i could not bear my day to day...<br />i was desperate to crawl outside my own skin...<br />i felt like i was suffocating...<br />i had lost myself..in my desire for her, in my hatred for myself...<br />i couldn’t feel who i was at all anymore...<br />i went away to an island paradise for the holidays by myself..<br /><br />all i could do was sorrow and sleep...<br />but then slowly,<br />i began to heal.<br />i surfed in the early mornings,<br />i can't forgive myself,<br /><br />and remembered that i did need she to be happy..<br />that i deserved more than what she had offered,<br />and that life would always move forward..<br />i remembered how to breathe again...<br />and when i came back from my pride, i decided to change my life.<br />for me...<br />for the things that i wanted.<br /><br />i crafted a five month plan that involved my current job and leaving the city..<br />i lived in to focus on career and my peace of mind...<br />i started putting things in motion, and the minute i did..<br />i was angry,<br />i was sad,<br />i tried to be understanding and gracious,<br />but she wouldn’t budge and slowly i realized,<br /><br />that none of this mattered anymore...<br />because i knew that this would happen...<br />because the first time she told me things i believed, i was wrong.<br />could i really be surprised that this happened again..<br /><br />how many more times would i believe<br />what i wanted to believe instead of believing..<br />what was real and right in front of me..<br />when would i stop compromising what i deserved for what i wanted...<br />when would i realize that being right, didn’t matter if the other person didn’t care..<br /><br />if you love someone,<br />you stay by them...<br />there is no such things as a wrong time or a mistake that is too great...<br />love is just love...<br />any excuse to walk away from love offered is just that:<br />an excuse to explain you can’t and don’t feel the same way back towards the person that’s offering their love to you.<br /><br />so this time,<br />i’ll let her walk away..<br /><br />and this time, i’m walking away for good..<br />and this time, i’m truly looking towards the future and accepting that this chapter of my life,<br />whatever it was, is over...<br /><br />i want to welcome what’s to come with a completely light..<br />and open heart because now i realize i’m finally letting go of what’s false in my life<br />to let in what will be true...<br /><br />i finally realize that the most important person i could ever love, is myself..<br />and part of loving myself is recognizing...<br />that i deserve someone who doesn’t just say that they love me,<br />but actually really does.<br />and to give that person the chance,<br /><br />i’ll weed out those who would fake it.<br />because we choose the lives we live and i choose truth and joy.<br />i choose love.<br />i guess this is a love story.<br />just a different kind of love.<br /><br />p/s : can't believe still wroted this...terbiasa barangkali fuuu..<br />special moments and unforgettable times~~ :]muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-1005031992793282242011-01-29T03:03:00.000-08:002011-01-29T06:07:02.089-08:00delima sweet<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567566181468605378" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 275px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUP38Z3qC8I/AAAAAAAADMQ/SZqZz79XoSk/s400/P4200148_01.JPG" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567603026751343538" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 301px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUQZdFPnS7I/AAAAAAAADMo/RlhXKD98Mos/s400/P4200137.JPG" border="0" />p/s: second pic, cam mak nenek hoho~~ :DmuSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-87902200702847106152011-01-29T01:36:00.000-08:002011-01-29T06:14:38.015-08:00manek chantek II<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567539657957040434" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 319px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 201px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPf0iFt4TI/AAAAAAAADLA/irxEdK-7bTY/s400/P6182574.JPG" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567543687290066018" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 325px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 375px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPjfEhklGI/AAAAAAAADLw/0yOCJFs8oWs/s400/page.jpg" border="0" /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPkVsY9IVI/AAAAAAAADL4/032jcEd2eJw/s1600/86868768.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567544625704280402" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 319px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 255px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPkVsY9IVI/AAAAAAAADL4/032jcEd2eJw/s400/86868768.jpg" border="0" /></a><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567539957571159538" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 310px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPgF-PShfI/AAAAAAAADLQ/dnb3rCZLl_I/s400/7676767.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567540368320302802" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 266px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPgd4ZhDtI/AAAAAAAADLo/XHY38PLY7rg/s400/525252452.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567539830044823522" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 330px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 356px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPf-jKpD-I/AAAAAAAADLI/8o19ZPClC-w/s400/253535.jpg" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567540092865267298" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 326px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 244px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUPgN2P6xmI/AAAAAAAADLY/E3e6piDGREk/s400/9678989.jpg" border="0" /><span>p/s : weekend jobs earn extra money.. :]</span>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2438168583053339073.post-86882793604617650802011-01-28T02:15:00.000-08:002011-01-28T04:02:22.892-08:00endorphins<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUKbzeBeCRI/AAAAAAAADKo/35sIqhv63Uc/s1600/67890.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5567183397918214418" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 192px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_w1GT9cNBYog/TUKbzeBeCRI/AAAAAAAADKo/35sIqhv63Uc/s400/67890.bmp" border="0" /></a>beat my bad mindset...<br /><div>badmood today~</div><br /><div>beating a bad mood is not an easy feat...</div><div>but really the only person that i can you out of the bad mood is myrself! </div><div>but there's lots of things i can do to drag..</div><div>i out of the dark mood and into a more postive frame of mind..</div><div>penat sgt+stress eh..<br />nakk tidooo jar....</div>muSHANGhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03139397223431017001noreply@blogger.com0