been long distance

i am thinking of going back home...

back home across the sea to where i’ve lived for the past 1 month hakeke....

i’m in north right now. i got into a interview and i had dreamt about going for almost six months here hoho.....

only i fell in love back home....

beautiful life is something i’ve been cautious of... you know this, because you were there when something hurting me around...

it had been coming for a while, but that night my world shattered. .you saved me...i lost myself in you quickly, you were everything i needed... you never pressured me, and you warm me in ways in months or... you knew where i was coming from, because you had done it to him...

money is not something i was looking for... i just needed an escape, but falling asleep.... we were never too serious, but we were each others. we needed each other to mend. And so we did..

it has been almost a year and a half since i could spend my every day with you...you left, and i went to discover the world hee.....somehow, we never stopped being each other’s...somewhere along the way, we fell in meaningless...

now, we hang in limbo. the way i need you never seems to fade, but destiny comes and goes like the wind...and then you fight with your heart and try to keep yourself away....

of course it isn’t easy, but we’ve always made it work. we’re both hanging on for the time in our lives where we end up in the same place. we both know it’s not going to be worth it...

p/s: kata ning "kerana cinta aku kembara"hehe~~