Our first looks at each other, our first conversation, our first touch. Our first text message andour first real talk. I will never forget. Never forget the feelings and how perfect everything was. We could be awake and talk about everything until the next morning, we could talk in the cellphone for hours without having any words left to say and we could lay down for a very long time and just stare into each others eyes without saying anything even less but too meaningful and thankful that i have you. It was love. Real love.We became closer and closer and when i thought it couldn't be better you whispered the three most beautiful words in my ear. You whispered "I love you" with a tear in you eye and said that you never thought you could have this feelings for anyone. It was the best moment of my life at that night. I was in love. Terrible in love.
We talked about how our future would look like and that we are going to have a little kitten.. Then we laughed for hours about what we just said. We talked about everything and we laughed, cried and did things together. That was life. You were life. You were the best girlfriend ever and everything would have been meaningless if you weren't in my life. I would go to the moon, travel round the world and count all the stars. Just for you.
We were so equal you and me, but different at the same time. We had something that other people just could dream of. I know you still the best for me, I have no idea what gonna life without you in my life.I will never forget how you said I was smart when i looked the most terrible than ever. And I will never forget how special you made me feel.
You had boyfriends before but I was the only one you fell in love with and I was the only one you ever cared about.
Every time I got a text message from you my heart stopped and every time I saw you called me I got a smile on my lips. You were mine. Im so happy each message i receipt from you, I never told you before this because im arrogant that i really miss so much each day..
But things changed. I can't count the sleepless nights and how many tears that have fell down on my cheek. I can't count how many times my heart got in thousand pieces and when everything felt meaningless. I have been so loved by you, but you have hurt me so badly at the same time. I never thought we would come to this part in our relationship were we don't show any respect and neither can live with or without each other.
It is always difficult when you think about what you've been and how it is now. There are moments where you think these are difficulties and we should keep strong and then there are moments where you feel as if you had a good run in the relationship and that its just best to end things because people wont change unless they want to. I just hope things work out for the best.
But now we stand here and don't know what's right or wrong. The only thing I know is that I will always love you, no matter what...
p/s: found this email in my draf, its almost past 3 years....
i never told and send this email to her anything at all, i felt ridiculous . . .all that skipping about, just something to share,wow this is very interesting infermatone i lernd alot what is sharing is caring was... :]
