end of 2010

the last diary page for 2010..
melalui postingan ini..
pribadi mengucapkan happy new year 2011!
i hope in this new year we can get everything we want...
our wishes will come true..
and in new year 2011 will be better than 2010!
amiiin!!!

juga ingin minta maaf...
kalau selama tahun 2010..
punya banyaak kesalahan hee..cam raya la pulak..
kepada beberapa orang yang tidak bisa disebutkan semuanya...
mohon maaf ya :)
dan terima kasih atas satu tahun yang menyenangkan!
harap tahun baru 2011 ini bakal sama menyenangkannya kayak 2010 :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!!!

T_T

p/s: no more words~~

120/80

got my result today...
am sooooo happy..staying healthy...
masa tok men2 hee.. :]

wlpn salah hari tok pegi check ...ingat harini jumaat 11pm da out slumber.. wahaha sengal~~
btw sentuh sikit doc advice (suka meng iya kn je kata2 doc hoho)...
emptiness is a mode of perception...
a way of looking at experience...
it adds nothing to and takes nothing away from the raw data of physical and mental events...

fatigue and stress..
poor nutritional habits...
and health concerns can contribute to feelings of emptiness...
an exercise..bla bla bla cukup2...
penat aih... T_T

klik klik

cik jantong nari2

...dup dap dup dap..
today wat testing2..cek2 rock2..

doc said:
tekanan darah dinilai dalam dua hal...
sebuah tekanan tinggi sistolik yang...
menandakan kontraksi maksimal jantung....
dan tekanan rendah diastolik atau...
tekanan istirahat...
pemeriksaan tekanan bla.. bla..bla...

p/s: owh ye owh ye upenye....(huwaa..pura2 faham...@_@)

field visit

p/s: cik mmooooo.. sgt sumbung uh!

enjoy sunset

dalam hidup kadang kita terjebak dalam rutinitas yang menjemukan...
tiap hari hanya dari ito ke ito saja..
bangun tido kuterus mandi...
berangkat ofis..
pulang malem lalu tidur lagi....arini idak sempat men2 huk2..
kedai pon idak dibuka rini tsstt..
pekerja ito malas agaknya uh..byk alasan..
..bebel lagi ma pasni aih..
customer pasti bengang lari mungkin ..sengal sungguh..

rindu menjadi student...yang lebih aman hakeke~~~
p/s: it's more important to relax in work than anywhere else.. penat!!!! ya gitu deh~~

meminang d300s

setelah lama menimbang dan menabung...
setelah camera di pow oleh ma T_T
mungkin ingin putuskan untuk meminang nikon d300s dengan lensa kit 18-55 VR..
dengan harga mahar ya akan dibeli saja daripada nggak bisa tido :D

sebelumnya membandingkan nikon D3000 dan canon EOS1000D..
overall kedua kamera entry level ini sudah mencukupi (hanya hobi).
arus berjimat lur neh~~

whats cooking

neh makanan kesukaan dirumah :D
kalo sudah masak kari ayam pasti lahap dan ngabisin nasi...

hari neh sorang2 lagi selama seminggu..
ma pergi holiday kl..tsstt..(jelez..)
kalo idak da urusan da ikot neh huk2..
skang kena masak sendri2..
ya..bosan bener..
sampai kari pon mo snap! hee..

masak kari ayam menu hari neh...
(beli yg frozen tinggal nak gorengan)..
dan sayur pak choy tumis bawang putih...

memandangkan bahannya penumis serta daun kari kehabisan stok....(malas nak kua lagi hee~)
masak kari ayam yang paling simple tanpa bahan-bahan tersebot...
kari ayam merupakan kegemaran sejak kecik lg..
sebelum melalut ntah apa-apa ntah......
...makan time~~

beat my bad mindset

lo tau gak bulan december all messup..
BADMOOD yak, penyakit yang paling benci BADMOOD...
im in a bad mood or just unhappy or idak sehat..
have no energy in the morning or
even during the day are really lost souls...
huwa...

boss...sayer p outstation sat.. :p

arrr....arrr....
di suatu petang...
telah menonton crita skyline..
filem neh filem sains fiksyen..
pasai alien yang nak takhluk bumi..
crita ini agak bez n punya sc-fi sangat baik....
ending dia pon..
owhh..
tergantung lah..
boring..boring...
cuma keja je boring..carik n ambik ilham di cinema~~ :p

we roll the bowl..sometimes we throw :p

p/s: xpandai sgt men bowling aihh ngee~~ but its realy fun!!!

love hiking in the woods II

then there is always the adventure...
that keeps me coming back for more....
the simple knowledge that these great places...
can only be seen by foot....
i enjoy the challenge of getting to a certain place..
by my own means....
it is worth every step...

every ouch..
bug bite and any other discomfort along the way....
just to know that they will soon be forgotten..
with the first aah or wow (view)....

i hike for the views...
the ones that can sometimes take your breath away...
such as eating lunch on the side of the mountain...

you can never get these great views from the concrete jungle most of us call home...
the only way to experience this perfect feeling of awe and aah is to hike it...
furthermore..
i love listening to and hopefully seeing the many animals (or signs of them)
and creatures of the forest....
i am thankful to them for sharing their homes with me...
i love that someday..

hopefully..
we will see a bear...
i love the flowers and the trees that surround me....
i love the way being out there makes me feel...
refreshed relaxed and carefree....
i love the smell of the woods...

sound of the crunch from leaves as you walk...
the sounds of the animal and the overwhelming feeling that i have when all of my senses are being enlightened....
one of the most important reasons i love to be outdoors is that i love to share these experiences.. with the people my family and friends..
because of sharing these experiences we all grow closer and individually....

i love the outdoors..
it goes beyond words...
it's the feelings and the views and the enjoyment of spending time...
with the people that i love and sharing these experiences with them...
the bear went over the mountain...
but as long as my feet will take me there...
i intend to keep going up those mountains and around every possible bend to see...

p/s: not all who wander are lost...

love hiking in the woods

where ever i go i love to backpacks with my huge travel backpacks...
in an article i was reading the author was asked why he backpacks..
so i thought i needed to answer this question for myself....

my family has asked me this very same question....
some of them think i am crazy...
(and the rest of them know i am)...
they just don't understand why.....
why i enjoy carrying so much weight on my back and sleeping in a tent and walking for miles.....
sometimes in not the best of weather to do such.....

so, i thought for a second and the answer didn't come that easily....
so i thought some more and some more and came up with my response....
for one thing...
i love the outdoors....
anything outdoors....
i am even looking forward to our upcoming raft ride....
no schedules to keep..
no timetable as it is in our concrete jungle...
i can explore at my own pace...
without any particular schedule...
no deadlines..
no phones..
no worries..
hike my own hike..
be carefree....

my curiosity makes me need and want to see...
what is around the next bend or up the next hill...
and it doesn't matter how many times i do...
the same hike every time it is different..
the same things won't be around the same bend each and every time..
sometimes the bend is even in a different spot..

also...
i like the knowledge that i know i can survive...
with everything on my back and that material possessions...
don't mean a whole lot out there...
and really the only thing that matters is the experiences
i bring with me and the experiences i take home with me....

p/s: official holiday islamic new year 1 Muharam 1432H

return to kuching

mun kitak orang perasan nak,
mun selalu rah tv ngga cerita-cerita melayu biasa nya ada dialog kedak tok...

mekcik..
seye deh depet keje sekereng.
iyeke..
begus le..keje ket mene..?
seye depet keje ket kelumpo.
iye ke..
jeuh tue..
benyek le geji kemu ye....
jengen lupe inget-inget juge ket mekcik ye..
iye le..
tekken seye lupe ket mekcik....

knak mst kolumpo....
mun cerita ya latar belakang rah perlis..,
mesti dapat keja...,
or bekerja rah kolumpo....
maka peneng ada bah dekat gik....

k lah ya jak..
..masok ofis~~

atoi

ouchh..
what a bad feelling to start a day..
sok mo keja aihh..

i'm not feeling well n with a stiff shoulder, nothing much i can do..
except staying home n rest. ...(tipoo sungguh...ngee~~)
i have to cancel few appointments wit doc..
cant force me-self anymore..
or thing mite get worse...

encek frly arus kuat neh huk2..
went to see doc yesterday...she gave me some pain killer n knowing me best ngee~,
she made me promise that i'll stay home, rest n sleep. wahahaha...

so... i swiched off the handphone (tipo lg.. :p ),..
with a music as a background...
n have a nice sleep. ZZZZZzzzz....

sleeping beuties

what can I do...
is this normal whenever something unpleasant happens or i become depressed or even anxious..
i want to go to sleep all day long!!!
i am sleepy all day..

my thinking is muddled and my memory is horrid..
i feel that Ii am a drag to be around...
i don't fall asleep before midnight....
ever. usually i lay there for hours, thinking...i try to

my mind but i can't...
i try to focus on my breathing,
but i can do that for hours, it bores me, and it doesn't make me fall asleep...
i try to consciously ...

i sleep in darkness and silence....
i've tried everything non-drug...
i do all thing daylight at the midnight aihh~~

pening lalat

went to the doc's office and blood pressure was high... im only 22 :p hekeke....
everything i have read so far says the earlier you get pre-eclamsia the worst....
should i be worried?
is it something ive done? huk2... T_T

hopez..dont worry because that just stresses out and makes things worse....
it happens to some people and some people react to being of kind...
i wouldnt stress about it...
just rest and do what the doctor says and enjoy the days~~ yoshh~~

must..just take it easy..
meditate, mellow out, don't over do and get lots of sleep....
avoid salt and drink lot of water so im flush out the system said the doc....
it will all help to regulate mine bp naturally...
im isn't so high that some behaviour changes couldn't bring me back to normal for the big day...
just do what the doctor says..remind myself huk2...

p/s: cik mesi....cik mesi...tlg cek2 ati syer gak hikiki~~ :D

where my letter

this week..
week of denial...
i couldn't agree more....

because i realized..

that's what i did this last week...

the feeling came out... againnn....

as we expect it...

at first, is not hurt that much.....

just waiting for the letter fix it and send over again that all..its take...

i'm bit sorrow and then i'm over it...hurt is over...

but feeling stay the same...

it came to me,

just like that.

i act like it didn't happen...

i'm pretending that it does not exist....
menyibukkan diri dengan tugasan,

rapat, tugas, tugas, dan maen2...

mencoba mengisi pikiran dengan apa aja kejaan harus lakukan, sekecil apapun....

i act like nothing happended....

nothing. and i'm just fine. but we know that its not true...
and finally, i let it out. everything. i wallowed all day....

its almost the end of the day, and i'm not feeling better. a little, but not all...

berusaha melupakannya dengan menonton dvd....

berkeping-keping. tapi itu ga berhasil juga...

tomorrow i'm gonna wake up early in the morning and make up my room... i promise!
if i can't make this feeling go away, at least i can do is distraction....

esoknye jumaat last pasti apa lagi hurm..

munkin saat ini pelu ketawa apa nanges... saja wahahaha....... T_T

naseb bek

semalem..semalem..ma garanknya suda.. mo buang semuaa komek yg ada lo..
sebab bsepah wahaha~~

rini capek lor..kemas buat kejaan sampei malem2......
tak jemu membaca lagi komik neh ulang2...
dari dulunya skang jugak kind of ketagih dengan komik terbitan gempak starz asalannya komik Jepun ( kreko tetap jugak di hati =] ) terjemahan dalam bm....

koleksi simpanan kian mencecah bla bla..sampai dimarahi.. bebel huk3 T_T.....
kata ma macam kanak2, useless-and waste time-komik wahaha~~...

pengaruh besar start baca benda neh datangnya dari teman time skul and u kot.....
penah layari kat internet..semu2 online manga to...
onemanga, foxmanga., mangaanimea,

sebab tak lengkap, internet slow and nak simpan jadi koleksi,

beli kat luar ja siri hot gimmick yg terakhir...
everytime dapat duit belanja (kadang2 pow parent tok beli hoho~~)

RM50 so nak pecah jadi duit kecil, menapak pergi 7-Eleven,

dan kat situlah spend RM6.50 utk buku neh....skunk ekonomi da meleset huk2...
kadang-kadang beli sebuah, paling terok beli 2 buah sekaligus...

walaweh.. tak sedar pon ada banyak ni novel grafik dari gempak starz ni..

yang paling suka lawak kampus r..

mat gempak pun best gak.. pokoknya..

semua best lah..

wahahaa...(gelak slow2..ma stil bengang @_@ )

nite nite II

once youre asleep..

pengen begadang nih ah..

mo cuci baju dulu sambil dengerin musik dari hape kesayangan..

trus nggambar kalo ada keinginannya..

trus apa lah terserah nanti..

pokonya begitulah..

kalo ngopi ya tinggal ambil kopi...

mm..

kalo nyetrika besok lagi aja deh sekarang mah...

ngga mau nyetrika cape banget kalo nyetrika..

(keja yg dpaksa ole ma waa..banyak sehh)..

besok aja malemnya tapi ngga malem2 amat deh..

i dont know what are you thinking that time..

liat aja nanti..

hmm..

udah brapa bulan yah ngga begadang ampe pagi..

molor sejam 3 pagi....