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mun kitak orang perasan nak,
mun selalu rah tv ngga cerita-cerita melayu biasa nya ada dialog kedak tok...

mekcik..
seye deh depet keje sekereng.
iyeke..
begus le..keje ket mene..?
seye depet keje ket kelumpo.
iye ke..
jeuh tue..
benyek le geji kemu ye....
jengen lupe inget-inget juge ket mekcik ye..
iye le..
tekken seye lupe ket mekcik....

knak mst kolumpo....
mun cerita ya latar belakang rah perlis..,
mesti dapat keja...,
or bekerja rah kolumpo....
maka peneng ada bah dekat gik....

k lah ya jak..
..masok ofis~~

atoi

ouchh..
what a bad feelling to start a day..
sok mo keja aihh..

i'm not feeling well n with a stiff shoulder, nothing much i can do..
except staying home n rest. ...(tipoo sungguh...ngee~~)
i have to cancel few appointments wit doc..
cant force me-self anymore..
or thing mite get worse...

encek frly arus kuat neh huk2..
went to see doc yesterday...she gave me some pain killer n knowing me best ngee~,
she made me promise that i'll stay home, rest n sleep. wahahaha...

so... i swiched off the handphone (tipo lg.. :p ),..
with a music as a background...
n have a nice sleep. ZZZZZzzzz....

sleeping beuties

what can I do...
is this normal whenever something unpleasant happens or i become depressed or even anxious..
i want to go to sleep all day long!!!
i am sleepy all day..

my thinking is muddled and my memory is horrid..
i feel that Ii am a drag to be around...
i don't fall asleep before midnight....
ever. usually i lay there for hours, thinking...i try to

my mind but i can't...
i try to focus on my breathing,
but i can do that for hours, it bores me, and it doesn't make me fall asleep...
i try to consciously ...

i sleep in darkness and silence....
i've tried everything non-drug...
i do all thing daylight at the midnight aihh~~

pening lalat

went to the doc's office and blood pressure was high... im only 22 :p hekeke....
everything i have read so far says the earlier you get pre-eclamsia the worst....
should i be worried?
is it something ive done? huk2... T_T

hopez..dont worry because that just stresses out and makes things worse....
it happens to some people and some people react to being of kind...
i wouldnt stress about it...
just rest and do what the doctor says and enjoy the days~~ yoshh~~

must..just take it easy..
meditate, mellow out, don't over do and get lots of sleep....
avoid salt and drink lot of water so im flush out the system said the doc....
it will all help to regulate mine bp naturally...
im isn't so high that some behaviour changes couldn't bring me back to normal for the big day...
just do what the doctor says..remind myself huk2...

p/s: cik mesi....cik mesi...tlg cek2 ati syer gak hikiki~~ :D

where my letter

this week..
week of denial...
i couldn't agree more....

because i realized..

that's what i did this last week...

the feeling came out... againnn....

as we expect it...

at first, is not hurt that much.....

just waiting for the letter fix it and send over again that all..its take...

i'm bit sorrow and then i'm over it...hurt is over...

but feeling stay the same...

it came to me,

just like that.

i act like it didn't happen...

i'm pretending that it does not exist....
menyibukkan diri dengan tugasan,

rapat, tugas, tugas, dan maen2...

mencoba mengisi pikiran dengan apa aja kejaan harus lakukan, sekecil apapun....

i act like nothing happended....

nothing. and i'm just fine. but we know that its not true...
and finally, i let it out. everything. i wallowed all day....

its almost the end of the day, and i'm not feeling better. a little, but not all...

berusaha melupakannya dengan menonton dvd....

berkeping-keping. tapi itu ga berhasil juga...

tomorrow i'm gonna wake up early in the morning and make up my room... i promise!
if i can't make this feeling go away, at least i can do is distraction....

esoknye jumaat last pasti apa lagi hurm..

munkin saat ini pelu ketawa apa nanges... saja wahahaha....... T_T

naseb bek

semalem..semalem..ma garanknya suda.. mo buang semuaa komek yg ada lo..
sebab bsepah wahaha~~

rini capek lor..kemas buat kejaan sampei malem2......
tak jemu membaca lagi komik neh ulang2...
dari dulunya skang jugak kind of ketagih dengan komik terbitan gempak starz asalannya komik Jepun ( kreko tetap jugak di hati =] ) terjemahan dalam bm....

koleksi simpanan kian mencecah bla bla..sampai dimarahi.. bebel huk3 T_T.....
kata ma macam kanak2, useless-and waste time-komik wahaha~~...

pengaruh besar start baca benda neh datangnya dari teman time skul and u kot.....
penah layari kat internet..semu2 online manga to...
onemanga, foxmanga., mangaanimea,

sebab tak lengkap, internet slow and nak simpan jadi koleksi,

beli kat luar ja siri hot gimmick yg terakhir...
everytime dapat duit belanja (kadang2 pow parent tok beli hoho~~)

RM50 so nak pecah jadi duit kecil, menapak pergi 7-Eleven,

dan kat situlah spend RM6.50 utk buku neh....skunk ekonomi da meleset huk2...
kadang-kadang beli sebuah, paling terok beli 2 buah sekaligus...

walaweh.. tak sedar pon ada banyak ni novel grafik dari gempak starz ni..

yang paling suka lawak kampus r..

mat gempak pun best gak.. pokoknya..

semua best lah..

wahahaa...(gelak slow2..ma stil bengang @_@ )

nite nite II

once youre asleep..

pengen begadang nih ah..

mo cuci baju dulu sambil dengerin musik dari hape kesayangan..

trus nggambar kalo ada keinginannya..

trus apa lah terserah nanti..

pokonya begitulah..

kalo ngopi ya tinggal ambil kopi...

mm..

kalo nyetrika besok lagi aja deh sekarang mah...

ngga mau nyetrika cape banget kalo nyetrika..

(keja yg dpaksa ole ma waa..banyak sehh)..

besok aja malemnya tapi ngga malem2 amat deh..

i dont know what are you thinking that time..

liat aja nanti..

hmm..

udah brapa bulan yah ngga begadang ampe pagi..

molor sejam 3 pagi....