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This goes out to someone that was, once the most important person in my life.
I didn’t realize it at the time I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so... this time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days,
I don’t really expect you to either It’s just... I don’t even know..

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need, the one that I gotta have just to succeed,
When I first saw you, I knew it was real I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel..
That wasn’t me, let me show you the way I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today.
I remember when I first looked into your eyes it was like God was there, heaven in the skies...

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt but I didn’t know I made everything worse. You told me we were crazy in love but you didn’t care when push came to shove,
If you loved me as much as you said you did then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit,
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me I loved you with my heart, really and truly....

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared when spent good time together, we're laughing, smile all the time, late nights, just holding you in my arms I don’t know how I could do you so wrong..
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you I really wanna know you like no one could else know you you’re number one, always in my heart and now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart...

I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna smile with you, You were my everything and I really miss you....
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man and then sit and laugh as you’re..The thought of that just shatters my heart, it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart..

At times we was off I was scared to show you now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you...
Without you, everything seems strange your name is forever planted in my brain...
Damn it, I’m insane, take away the pain take away the hurt..sheep, we can make it work...

What about when you looked into my eyes told me you loved me as you would hugged me..
I guess everything you said was a lie I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes, now I’m not even a thought in your mind I can see clearly, my love is not blind...

I just wish everything could have turned out differently I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too, you would understand, but…No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart..You’ll always be my special one..
Our first day, it seemed so magical, I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when we first hanging out? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse....

We hit it off, I knew it was real but now I can’t take all the pain that I feel,
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care...
Remember the times? Remember when we laugh together? I didn’t think you would ever do me like this..
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying now on the inside it feels like I’m dying... and I just wanted to say I'm sorry to hurting you, cause I don't know what else I can do to we just start over again...

And I do miss you I just thought we were meant to be I guess now, we’ll never know the only thing I want is for you to be happy whether it be with me, or without me I just want you to be happy ofcause i want you to happy....and so it ends?