You're all that I've got

I'm so tired of being here...suppressed by all my childish fears and if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave, cause your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears and I held your hand through all of these years. But you still have...all of me. You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
now I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams...your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.

I've been alone all along. I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars that i make it. I'm lonely. People don't care, I have so many complaints, but everyone can see that I'm emo, so they don't listen. I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel but it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real I have created a fantasy world, in which you loved me back. But, it's not real just in my imagination, and never will be, no matter how hard I try. So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do..wuuwu :'(''

Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here cause you're all that I got" So, I just gave up on you, I watched you turn your back like everyone else in my life ..ignored me... but, you're all that I've got, so I'll just...be here...come talk to me...This is a cry for help. The chorus is self-explanatory, as well. I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense I'm insecure, and unconfident because of my past. You don't understand, I have had a bad past, and I try to do what I can to get over it, but I still have personality disorders and such... I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out. The tone of the voice here in the final two lines above, mean a lot to me. Her sounds like she crying, this happens all too often.
The rest just repeats itself...


# today 13 is Fish birthday...hurm happy birthday!